Diamonds

"I never worry about diets. The only carrots that interest me are the number of carats in a diamond." - Mae West, entertainer

I always enjoy reading quotes from Mae West. I think I could learn a few things from her if she was still around. She always struck me as a self-confident woman - the kind of woman I always wanted to be.

Self-confidence has never been my strong suit. As a child I felt very unsure of myself all the time. I'm not sure why this was, but it became a serious problem as I entered adulthood. I found myself constantly apologizing for things that had nothing to do with me. I felt as if it was my responsibility to make people happy all of the time - whether at work or at home. If the people in my life were in a bad mood for any reason, I felt like I needed to "fix" their mood. If I couldn't do that, I felt like a failure. It was emotionally draining and I ran out of steam after awhile.

I was fortunate enough to get some help for this dilemma. I learned (through very special friends) that I have many reasons to feel confidence in myself. And I do today. I know that the God of my understanding adores me. I am all about helping others today, which I believe is the only thing God needs from me. Today it's not all about me and my issues - today it's about simply doing God's will on a daily basis. I can feel the confidence building inside of me as a result of this shift in my attitude. Thank you God!