One Letter Short

"Anger is only one letter short of danger." - Eleanor Roosevelt, first lady (1933-1945) and reform leader

I used to be an angry person, a VERY angry person. I would always tend to resort to screaming and shouting when I thought people were not paying enough attention to me. I wanted people to listen to me; I wanted to be heard. I don't know what brought this on originally fo me but it lasted for many years and, unfortunately, those closest to me received the brunt of my rage for too many years.

It was necessary for me to become aware of this behavior, acknowledge that it was not appropriate, and consciously take actions opposite from those I would normally take. It took time but I have been able to change over recent years and my reactions are not as harsh, rude, or dramatic as they used to be.

I recognized that my anger came from fear and I needed to find a way to release my fears without exploding in anger and rage. It occurred to me that I had a God in my life and I knew that God was willing to help me through anything life threw my way. I just needed to remember that God was in charge and that God is big enough to handle everything. I don't need to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. I do need to accept life as it is and continue to do the next right thing, moving one foot in front of the other, as I leave the results up to the Universe.

This may seem cliche and it may seem as if I am trying to be a perfect little person. That is not the case. I've just learned these lessons recently. I am glad that I don't explode in rage anymore. I get angry at times because I am human but fortunately I don't have to let it take me to the darkness of rage now. I am truly grateful to have learned this lesson. Thank you God!